what's coming ahead, am i going to return?

with navneet gone for bhopal (for his mba) today i went to the spot all by myself.

Once it was a meeting place for each evening...used to be a gathering of 5 to 6 peoples, then we all passed 12th and now it was time to move on to the next level..me and navneet took admissions. I moved to delhi and he stayed..others also moved on in their own way.

well the pond (the spot) was now visited only in june and jan..when i had my breaks, gathering reduced from 5-6 to 2 , but i never noticed any difference but today i suddenly realised that i dont know where am i heading to?

i want to do mba and then settle with a fat pay-check...but will i ever find any place like the spot.

walking, in faint light coming from the telephone exchange, breeze blowing from the far side of lake felt familiar, it reminded me of times when mind was totally tension free, when there was only 10 or 20 bucks in our pockets; there was nothing like wallet in our minds we were free spirits. today we have more than hundreds, good branded cloths, girlfriend experience-throughly(which we used to think of haha) and still unable to enjoy the calm of that breeze. mind is clustered with thoughts of jobs after studies, mba entrance exam. all these thoughts were wrestling in my mind this evening and my heart was tightly clinging to every bit of innocence floating in the air, the carelessness of the wind, the calm nature of the water.

i can very well see now the upcoming rat race, the 9 to 5 job schedule which easily extends to 10 and even Saturdays and Sundays. "just sitting there I framed a movie (or a novel) scene in which the guy had a job meeting or something in his hometown after which he goes to the places he grew and had goodtimes. now that he knows no one in the locality except few old pair of legs sitting at their front porch he goes to the usual abandoned mill and lights a cigarette and settles for a long session of walk in past memories. he takes a puff or two and then stands, looks around, throws the cigarette didnt even bother to crush it under his shoe and walks out realizing he has moved on. The boy he used to be and man he is are two different persons with different attitude toward life." then i realized that guy maybe me. now that navneet has left the town and my brother also leaving next month, my dad is retiring next year then he'll also leave this town will the evening breeze of THE SPOT be tempting enough for me to come back to this town? with no home and friends here will this be my HOME TOWN?

The spot (pond, from two different angles):

lost : the end || my explanation

lost explanation is simple yet confusing. one thing for sure when jack's father says to him that "there is no now here", means every character died at different times but there time is constant so they meet up together and move on together.
hurley says to ben that he was a great no.2 and ben replied by saying that- you have been a great no.1, shows that they both have done their tasks as the protector of the island and died...its just that they all are joining each other at same place and ame time.

We only know what the people on the Island know. We only know what we experience, and what the people around us experience.

There was no omnipotent narrator on the show, there isn't one in life. What they don't know, we don't know, what Jack doesn't know, we don't know and it's ok. Some things don't need an answer. We make our own destiny, our own kind of music.

Everybody needed the Island to help them find their own purpose, become who they were meant to be.

Claire wasn't ready to be a mother - the Island kept her until she was. Kate wasn't ready to settle down - until she was. Jin and Sun were denying how important they were to each other until they finally understood it. Hurley needed to know he was good and not bad or cursed, that nothing informed his life not even a random set of numbers. Sayid needed to prove to himself he was a good person, Ben and Sawyer needed to do this too. Jack needed to fix himself by fixing everyone else.

In the end the difference between the candidates and say Michael is that they found redemption on the Island, Michael didn't. He murdered someone for non defensive reasons, he remained flawed and that's why he remained on the Island.

This was always Jack's story. He was a Shephard, literally and metaphorically.

Yes the Christian allegory was strong, but I think there was enough to show that religion is not always the only qualifier for faith and that you can be destined for something and still have free will.

Walt and Desmond, they were special. They had their constants, they KNEW themselves and so were in charge of their own destinies. They couldn't find redemption on the island because they didn't need to be redeemed.

The candidates found redemption through free will. They chose their actions and sacrificed for each other. That was the difference between them and say, Ben. That's why Ben never spoke to Jacob, that's why Ben wasn't with them at the end, he was yet to make the sacrifice that would redeem him (though it could also be that he was yet to die), namely to be a father figure to Alex as she grows up in sideways world. Only once he's done that, once he's satisfied her future is secure, will Ben be able to let go. He needed affirmation, and looked for it from the Island but it was the people he thought were a threat to him initially that ended up saving him so to speak.

They were meant to be on the island because the island showed them their power, and everything they did from then on was based on free will.

It wasn't sci-fi, it was a good ol' fashioned character study, greek tragedy, whatever. To have focused on the mysteries is to have missed out on what the show was always about: the journey and experiences of this group of people.

The end was perfect. Think about it.

lost: the end

The finale episode || one of the best i have ever seen. good acting by all the actors. key factor for lost is the air of mystery around it..and director remain true to it...answers given but still a lot left for viewer to find out. TRAGIC YET HAPPILY ENDED.
its the end of a phenomenon like 'harry potter'

quoting Stephen King: If reading Harry Potter was about learning how to live, then watching LOST was about learning how to die.

low disk space in vista || u dont knw how or why but vista is eating your diskspace

After playing around with Vista for a few months, I noticed that it is slowly eating up my hard drive space - and I couldn’t figure out where it is all going. A quick Google search made me realize that it uses a lot of gigabytes for ‘System Restore’. I rarely ever use this so it is really unnecessary for Vista to take 15+ GB for it - in my case. Here is what you can do to check how much space Vista is using for System Restore and to decrease it.

To check how much space is being used, go to command prompt with administrator privileges:

1. Click Start - All Programs - Accessories. Right click on ‘Command Prompt’ and click ‘Run as Administrator’.
2. Type the following in the command prompt:vssadmin list shadowstorage The results shown will be similar to this:
   Used Shadow Copy Storage space: 33.8 GB
   Allocated Shadow Copy Storage space: 33.8 GB
   Maximum Shadow Copy Storage space: 42 GB
3. If you feel like Vista is taking up too much space, then use this command to lower it:vssadmin resize shadowstorage /On=[Drive Letter]: /For=[Drive Letter]: /Maxsize=[space]For example, I executed this command to lower it to 5GB:
   vssadmin resize shadowstorage /On=C: /For=C: /Maxsize=2GB

This saved me more than 40 gigabytes, which I can use to store more essential files on the hard drive.