novel that i never finished.

guys..here is the prologue of a short novel that i once started writing but never finished. i wrote something like 2 or 3 chapters. Anyways, here it is. hope u’l enjoy it….

Who says rock is noise? After a whole week of courtroom drama coverage, on the channel. Finally the case has ended and channel is looking forward to another hot story to make shows and burn TRP. So, i can enjoy some free time indulging myself in those rogue lyrics of AC DC.
i parked my car by the road side, without even worrying for traffic police. not even police cares in CP after 10’o clock in night. i took a beer out of my car, uncapped it and dropped the cap there only. i wasn’t enjoying the beer or the song playing on my ipod, hell i didn’t even look back to those two foreigner chicks who just passed by. All that was going through my mind was about that boy, the boy who today was declared free of all charges, by the court. Innocent, but dead. He was only19.
As i continued with my beer, i raised to a toast. A toast to friendship. All of his friends stood by him in the court, testified to prove his innocence. And my respect for police increased a bit, for that honest policemen who made efforts and saved that boy and his family from ill repute. I finished my report today by interviewing his friends..and rushed for a beer, but one thing kept on hitting me again and again – 19 is not an age to die.
anyways i shook my head, finished the remaining beer in one go, hit the the volume max and started walking to my car. as i was walking i didn’t realise that i was singing the song out loud. When i saw someone sitting on the bench ahead waving, i checked behind to make sure he was waving to me..yup, he was waving to me. i went up to him.
i said “ yeah, how may i help you.”
-the song you were listening to,it was Highway To Hell. right?
-yes, why do u ask?
-can i listen to it, please?
someone at 10:30 in cp, asks you to let him listen to a particular song from your player. Thats odd..very unusual.
he was an young boy, decent. Looking very sad. i gessed it was breakup or poor results so i let him, while i browsed through few emails on my phone.
after a while he handed me the ipod back and said – thanks, it was long since i heard any classic rock. that struck, what’s his problem, why is he so sad. so i thought i may engage him in talk.
hi i m nitin, probably u know me from live-24 X 7.
he replied- hi, i am ankit. And yeah, i know u…i am a big fan
he was speaking with great zeal .
- infact i am also doing…
he stopped, suddenly all the passion in his eyes was gone. he stood up started walking away..i put my hand on his back
- hey what happened?
and when he turned back, i saw his face for the first time in light. and i was struck with unknown fear, not that horror movie fear. it was indescribable.
i knew who he was, i knew this boy. he was ankit, accused for a murder and then was shot dead in public. he was the boy on whom i was making news reports for about a week.
And i was sitting with him on a bench in cp.
i was in a total shock – dude, you are dead? woh woh..man which brand was that, i am high in a beer only. I need to call a cab, no driving tonight.
-wait man, wait. i am real. real but dead, you are not hallucinating. u dont need to be afraid i haven’t learned those ghost tricks yet.
i was motionless, should i laugh on his joke. What if he takes my laugh in wrong sense, and what if he  gets angry if i dont respond to his jokes. what the fuck !! does ghosts crack joke? shut up nitin its not a ‘curious case of nitin bhatt’ but ‘the fucking case of mr. ghost sitting right in front of you.

what's coming ahead, am i going to return?

with navneet gone for bhopal (for his mba) today i went to the spot all by myself.

Once it was a meeting place for each evening...used to be a gathering of 5 to 6 peoples, then we all passed 12th and now it was time to move on to the next level..me and navneet took admissions. I moved to delhi and he stayed..others also moved on in their own way.

well the pond (the spot) was now visited only in june and jan..when i had my breaks, gathering reduced from 5-6 to 2 , but i never noticed any difference but today i suddenly realised that i dont know where am i heading to?

i want to do mba and then settle with a fat pay-check...but will i ever find any place like the spot.

walking, in faint light coming from the telephone exchange, breeze blowing from the far side of lake felt familiar, it reminded me of times when mind was totally tension free, when there was only 10 or 20 bucks in our pockets; there was nothing like wallet in our minds we were free spirits. today we have more than hundreds, good branded cloths, girlfriend experience-throughly(which we used to think of haha) and still unable to enjoy the calm of that breeze. mind is clustered with thoughts of jobs after studies, mba entrance exam. all these thoughts were wrestling in my mind this evening and my heart was tightly clinging to every bit of innocence floating in the air, the carelessness of the wind, the calm nature of the water.

i can very well see now the upcoming rat race, the 9 to 5 job schedule which easily extends to 10 and even Saturdays and Sundays. "just sitting there I framed a movie (or a novel) scene in which the guy had a job meeting or something in his hometown after which he goes to the places he grew and had goodtimes. now that he knows no one in the locality except few old pair of legs sitting at their front porch he goes to the usual abandoned mill and lights a cigarette and settles for a long session of walk in past memories. he takes a puff or two and then stands, looks around, throws the cigarette didnt even bother to crush it under his shoe and walks out realizing he has moved on. The boy he used to be and man he is are two different persons with different attitude toward life." then i realized that guy maybe me. now that navneet has left the town and my brother also leaving next month, my dad is retiring next year then he'll also leave this town will the evening breeze of THE SPOT be tempting enough for me to come back to this town? with no home and friends here will this be my HOME TOWN?

The spot (pond, from two different angles):

lost : the end || my explanation

lost explanation is simple yet confusing. one thing for sure when jack's father says to him that "there is no now here", means every character died at different times but there time is constant so they meet up together and move on together.
hurley says to ben that he was a great no.2 and ben replied by saying that- you have been a great no.1, shows that they both have done their tasks as the protector of the island and died...its just that they all are joining each other at same place and ame time.

We only know what the people on the Island know. We only know what we experience, and what the people around us experience.

There was no omnipotent narrator on the show, there isn't one in life. What they don't know, we don't know, what Jack doesn't know, we don't know and it's ok. Some things don't need an answer. We make our own destiny, our own kind of music.

Everybody needed the Island to help them find their own purpose, become who they were meant to be.

Claire wasn't ready to be a mother - the Island kept her until she was. Kate wasn't ready to settle down - until she was. Jin and Sun were denying how important they were to each other until they finally understood it. Hurley needed to know he was good and not bad or cursed, that nothing informed his life not even a random set of numbers. Sayid needed to prove to himself he was a good person, Ben and Sawyer needed to do this too. Jack needed to fix himself by fixing everyone else.

In the end the difference between the candidates and say Michael is that they found redemption on the Island, Michael didn't. He murdered someone for non defensive reasons, he remained flawed and that's why he remained on the Island.

This was always Jack's story. He was a Shephard, literally and metaphorically.

Yes the Christian allegory was strong, but I think there was enough to show that religion is not always the only qualifier for faith and that you can be destined for something and still have free will.

Walt and Desmond, they were special. They had their constants, they KNEW themselves and so were in charge of their own destinies. They couldn't find redemption on the island because they didn't need to be redeemed.

The candidates found redemption through free will. They chose their actions and sacrificed for each other. That was the difference between them and say, Ben. That's why Ben never spoke to Jacob, that's why Ben wasn't with them at the end, he was yet to make the sacrifice that would redeem him (though it could also be that he was yet to die), namely to be a father figure to Alex as she grows up in sideways world. Only once he's done that, once he's satisfied her future is secure, will Ben be able to let go. He needed affirmation, and looked for it from the Island but it was the people he thought were a threat to him initially that ended up saving him so to speak.

They were meant to be on the island because the island showed them their power, and everything they did from then on was based on free will.

It wasn't sci-fi, it was a good ol' fashioned character study, greek tragedy, whatever. To have focused on the mysteries is to have missed out on what the show was always about: the journey and experiences of this group of people.

The end was perfect. Think about it.

lost: the end

The finale episode || one of the best i have ever seen. good acting by all the actors. key factor for lost is the air of mystery around it..and director remain true to it...answers given but still a lot left for viewer to find out. TRAGIC YET HAPPILY ENDED.
its the end of a phenomenon like 'harry potter'

quoting Stephen King: If reading Harry Potter was about learning how to live, then watching LOST was about learning how to die.

low disk space in vista || u dont knw how or why but vista is eating your diskspace

After playing around with Vista for a few months, I noticed that it is slowly eating up my hard drive space - and I couldn’t figure out where it is all going. A quick Google search made me realize that it uses a lot of gigabytes for ‘System Restore’. I rarely ever use this so it is really unnecessary for Vista to take 15+ GB for it - in my case. Here is what you can do to check how much space Vista is using for System Restore and to decrease it.

To check how much space is being used, go to command prompt with administrator privileges:

1. Click Start - All Programs - Accessories. Right click on ‘Command Prompt’ and click ‘Run as Administrator’.
2. Type the following in the command prompt:vssadmin list shadowstorage The results shown will be similar to this:
   Used Shadow Copy Storage space: 33.8 GB
   Allocated Shadow Copy Storage space: 33.8 GB
   Maximum Shadow Copy Storage space: 42 GB
3. If you feel like Vista is taking up too much space, then use this command to lower it:vssadmin resize shadowstorage /On=[Drive Letter]: /For=[Drive Letter]: /Maxsize=[space]For example, I executed this command to lower it to 5GB:
   vssadmin resize shadowstorage /On=C: /For=C: /Maxsize=2GB

This saved me more than 40 gigabytes, which I can use to store more essential files on the hard drive.

get back - song at the end of TROPIC THUNDER

this is the song on which tom cruise performed the hip-hop dance

	Ludacris feat. Sum41 - Get Back .mp3
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

here is the download link : http://www.yoraps.com/music/ludacris-get_back.mp3

church- not holy at all

guys let me tell u some thing tat i came across, this was on the blog whose address is mentioned below :

A few weeks ago Kept Man and I took a day trip out to Kutna Hora. Mostly we went because I had heard years and years ago about a bone church (otherwise known as Sedlec Ossuary) with a chandelier made out of every bone in the human body and I wanted to take a look.

So what did I think of said bone church? Artistic displays of human remains? Pretty creepy. And dirty. No one dusts the bones. Ever. I mean they're on display shouldn't they be cleaned. Wouldn't that be a nice gesture towards those whose remains have been used? Another nice gesture might have been to not make them look like party streamers. But maybe that's just me.

Maybe I'm just being harsh. Maybe I just don't like being confronted with my own mortality. Maybe I'm just creeped out.

Despite my reaction to this church I still have to confess that it is fascinating to see in person. So if you're every in Czech Republic it's worth a look and the graveyard I found to be particularly interesting and pretty even in the winter. There is a also a beautiful church (St. Barbara) and a castle in the town that is worth taking a look at if you happen to be in that neck of the woods.http://nutztoyou.blogspot.com/?expref=next-blog

"I THINK UR HAND IS IN VICINITY OF UR REPRODUCTIVE STRUCTURE!

the 'patliputra central school' community that i own on orkut had this entry under the forum titled "get urself from the experience of ur schoolmates" http://www.orkut.co.in/Main#CommMsgs?cmm=18956786&tid=5437241246068434269&start=1 . Here it goes, i hope u njoy it as much as i do. just frame ur mind like a seventh grader before reading it. :::

hello frnds! I'm xeeshan! I'm here to share something wid my schoolmates abt ane of my amazing frnd who is about 2 celebrate his birthday! he is a fantastic n a caring guy!
we & our classmate were in class 7th! MR. ANTONY XAVIERS used 2 take our chemistry class! one day he entered in class 2 teach BIOLOGY! stidents chosen a fantastic chapter i.e "HUMAN REPRODUCTION"! As we all r well aware of Mr. ANTONY's frank nature- he started his lecture in his own unique style!!!!!!!!!!!! We [i n my frnd] occupied 5th bench! In the beginning there was pin-drop silence prevailing in the classroom except few wisperings! As the lecture proceeded-----students got divided in sects!!!! some were smiling! some were curious where as some were feeling shy! Bt one thing was common--"almost all were enjoing MR.ANTONY's lecture! After dealing wid the basic aspects of reproduction the lecture shifted to sub topic-"REPRODUCTIVE STRUCTURE". Everything was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We [my frnd n i] were quite involved!!!!! Suddenly MR. ANTONY observed my frnd's peculiar action n commented "I THINK UR HAND IS IN VICINITY OF UR REPRODUCTIVE STRUCTURE!

Wid this a laugh shockwave rocked our classroom n my frnd just BLUSHED!!!!!!!!!! He has nothing 2 say!!!!!!!!!!!

This is one of the memories frm the core of my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want 2 reveal my frnd's identity as i don't know in wat way he's going 2 react!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can just pridict dat he's going 2 have a
beautiful smile across his face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one thing i would like 2 convey thru this post--"I still need ur support dear! Wishing u all the best 4 ur rest of life n a warm birthday"

[FRND i would like 2 hav ur opinion! plz do comment on this if u want 2 reveal!]

journey back home

this holi when i packed my bags i never knew that this is going to be one hell of a ride. Very first, one and only thing i hate about India is its population. Guys have u ever seen a overloaded blue-line bus in Delhi... let me make up an image for u - inside is full n people are hanging out of the gate, everyone holding whtever he/she can. exactly same it was yesterday. well, eventually i made the first mistake by not making advance reservation ( generation 'Today is getting quite irresponsible - i can say being a part of it). but by the time i reached the platform, i came to know one divine fact - two days before holi if u r going to patna u cant differentiate between a reserved coach and one unreserved coach. Anyways who m i to get a v.i.p. treatment, i tried being a part of the mob and getting along with it, but i guess i was too sophisticated for that (actually i was nt strong enough to cut thru that mob n get on the train, i bet even HeMan cudn't).

so i bid my farewell to the train (before it was stopped for chain pulling " 5 times ").

(well, something like this can happen only in pakistan.)

next and the only option was to get on PURSHOTAM express (train 100km of-route of patna) i deboarded train at gaya n then took a bus to patna. the best part- i purchased ticket for this train in rs 1400 which was actually of rs 400 . i tell u, these festive seasons are the best time for black marketing of tickets .

this was the sufeering part of my journey, now i come to the best part. well i enjoying observing peoples behavior at different times. following are the train behaviors which i had observed earlier also but was confirmed with this time

• they all try to show how easily they got the ticket at the last moment.
• as soon as a poor guy asks about any rule of railways (mostly related to ticketing - cancelling or tatkal), everyone jumps with their experience n gyan ( gyan is what i call to superior level of knowledge being shown by someone )
• favorite time-pass topics in the train Politics and Spirituality . i swear they can talk non-stop over politics n spritualism. and there is no bloody chance that they will agree to one another on any point. there has to be two sides...sometimes i found even a third one which goes anti to both.
• now one golden key from my vault...95% of the times people on the same seat (berth) make the same team n agree with the game partner...n in each game there only one dominant striker from either teams. as i mentioned earlier about a third opinion- that's a single man army, and never dominates the game, it just adds up new dimensions.
• one final take....its never a fixed rule that game will start with spirituality or politics. but thru a game both will be disscussed.

Holla!!

hey guyz this is the first time I am blogging so i guess ima just gonna say its ravi saying hi, hello, namaste to all. N for sure i’l be blogging good n interesting.