with navneet gone for bhopal (for his mba) today i went to the spot all by myself.
Once it was a meeting place for each evening...used to be a gathering of 5 to 6 peoples, then we all passed 12th and now it was time to move on to the next level..me and navneet took admissions. I moved to delhi and he stayed..others also moved on in their own way.
well the pond (the spot) was now visited only in june and jan..when i had my breaks, gathering reduced from 5-6 to 2 , but i never noticed any difference but today i suddenly realised that i dont know where am i heading to?
i want to do mba and then settle with a fat pay-check...but will i ever find any place like the spot.
walking, in faint light coming from the telephone exchange, breeze blowing from the far side of lake felt familiar, it reminded me of times when mind was totally tension free, when there was only 10 or 20 bucks in our pockets; there was nothing like wallet in our minds we were free spirits. today we have more than hundreds, good branded cloths, girlfriend experience-throughly(which we used to think of haha) and still unable to enjoy the calm of that breeze. mind is clustered with thoughts of jobs after studies, mba entrance exam. all these thoughts were wrestling in my mind this evening and my heart was tightly clinging to every bit of innocence floating in the air, the carelessness of the wind, the calm nature of the water.
i can very well see now the upcoming rat race, the 9 to 5 job schedule which easily extends to 10 and even Saturdays and Sundays. "just sitting there I framed a movie (or a novel) scene in which the guy had a job meeting or something in his hometown after which he goes to the places he grew and had goodtimes. now that he knows no one in the locality except few old pair of legs sitting at their front porch he goes to the usual abandoned mill and lights a cigarette and settles for a long session of walk in past memories. he takes a puff or two and then stands, looks around, throws the cigarette didnt even bother to crush it under his shoe and walks out realizing he has moved on. The boy he used to be and man he is are two different persons with different attitude toward life." then i realized that guy maybe me. now that navneet has left the town and my brother also leaving next month, my dad is retiring next year then he'll also leave this town will the evening breeze of THE SPOT be tempting enough for me to come back to this town? with no home and friends here will this be my HOME TOWN?
The spot (pond, from two different angles):
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